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Not On My Own.

August 13, 2009

notonmyownNot on my own. Can i defeat this wall. Made of rock and brick stacked so high that i cannot possibly see the other side. Climbing, i cannot grasp any ledge. Jumping, i cannot find a crack through which I can see. Pushing, i cannot budge this mountain of mine.

 

Not on my own. I hear from the blowing trees all around. And from the storm clouds gathering far above my head. And just as the sun sets on the far side of the wall, I realize that time is catching up with me.

 

On my own. I could do it when I was running freely through the fields. Going where I desired to go. Spending my time however it came and then went. But now the day draws to a close. And here I am. Next to this great wall.

 

Not on my own. Will I get to where I have got to go. Though it seemed so easy at first. Now it’s not. And I wish I would have held on to what I knew was my strength. But I let it go in search of independence. And that got me here all alone. Beside this wall. Without anything on which I am dependent. Nothing to help me get out of what I can’t get past on my own.

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  1. 2blu2btru permalink
    August 14, 2009 7:10 pm

    I know this feeling exactly! I wanted to be independent so badly, especially when I finished college last August. I wanted my own place in my own city without anybody interfering in my life. Well, some days it sucks to be somewhere by yourself. All those annoying people, and God, have their uses. Learning to lean has taken on gargantuan proportions…keep writing; I’ll keep reading!

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